Saturday, June 04, 2011

ADHD

I might've mentioned once or twice that I have this condition. Many, many, many people view this condition as a bullshit diagnosis.

It's not, I assure you. The lack of ability to pay attention and lack of short term memory is constantly a problem.

The lack of motivation, organization, and the inability to achieve those things is a constant source of frustration.

How many women do you know that forget their own anniversaries? How many people do you know that forget their court dates.

A few years ago...about 13, to be exact...I was arrested because I forgot about a court date. You'd think that would have taught me, right?

Nope. This week...I forgot my anniversary AND a court date. So, now, a bench warrant has been issued, I am sure. Lovely. Not to mention how much more money it's going to cost.

Hell, I almost forgot to go to jury duty when I had it a while ago. In order to remember these things, I cannot allow myself to focus on anything else.

This kind of thing can bring self loathing to a level never achieved before. I know in my heart that I'm not lazy, crazy or stupid, but it sure is hard to convince the casual observer. Hell, it's hard to convince myself sometimes.

Sigh.

1 comments:

Anonymous said...

I think the Court will be kind to you if you just forgot,the AJC had a write up a while back about people just not showing up and they still didnt arrest them ,there is a big difference between not caring and to forget the date